Daily Archives: April 18, 2015
According to Alexa.com, Amy’s blog is ranked at approximately number 661,000 in the world.
My site mynameisemmanuelmuema.wordpress.com is way behind compared to aquileana.wordpress.com. My site is ranked at approximately number 4,000,000 in the world.
But my blog is slowly growing and I’m getting an average of two thousand views in a day.
Here is a brief summary of Alexa, stolen from Wikipedia;
Alexa Internet, Inc. is a California-based subsidiary company of Amazon.com which provides commercial web traffic data. Founded as an independent company in 1996, Alexa was acquired by Amazon in 1999. Its toolbar collects data on browsing behavior and transmits it to the Alexa website, where it is stored and analyzed, forming the basis for the company’s web traffic reporting. According to its website, Alexa provides traffic data, global rankings and other information on 30 million websites, and as of 2015 its website is visited by over 6.5 million people monthly.
When you love someone so deep inside,
It seems like it’s so easy to hide.
You’ve loved him for so very long,
You would think he could do no wrong.
Every day you would hope and pray,
That he would always stay this way.
He treated you like you should be treated,
You thought your life was finally completed.
You thought your love was growing true,
And then one day it was all so blue.
He started putting you down and it hurt,
You thought all you were to him was dirt.
He started ignoring you and you wondered why,
All you wanted to do was curl up and die.
You thought your relationship would never end,
But that was all so fake and pretend.
One night he was so sweet to you,
You thought all those things were maybe untrue,
Two days later he was back the same,
You thought you were the one to blame.
He thought the relationship was getting too serious
And that you had become a little too curious.
By this time you knew it wouldn’t last,
All the nice things he said were in the past.
You thought that you would marry him some day,
But this time God wanted to get his way.
You wanted things back how they were before,
But you knew this couldn’t happen anymore.
It was a Saturday night about ten o’clock,
You heard the news and it wasn’t a shock.
You knew this was going to happen soon,
As you laid there and cried in the pale lit moon.
I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.
My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it’s just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.
Some say I’m psycho,
some say I’m just weird.
It’s like I’m a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.
I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.
I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.
Oh gentle winds ‘neath moonlit skies,
Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?
Below the branches, here about,
Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
Do not you hear my woeful screams?
Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
Do not you see my hearts a’skew?
Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
Do not you feel my jagged scars?
Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
For you’ll not find it ‘mongst these trees.
It’s scattered ‘cross the moonlit skies,
Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
It’s drifting o’re the gentle rain,
A symbol of my silent pain.
It’s buried ‘neath the meadow fair,
Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
It’s lost among the stars this night,
Too far to ease my quiet fright.
No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
For simply … it has torn apart.
I knew someday it would have to end
I knew eventually I would have to go back to calling you friend
It’s killing me that now that day has come
If it’s for the best then where is this pain from
I know deep inside that this is what I had to do
but it’s breaking my heart to walk away from you
I’m trying my best to appear strong
but it’s hard when part of me says that in your arms is where I belong
I still love you with all my heart
that’s not going to change even though we’re apart
You were my first love and my first kiss
There are so many of our special times I’m going to miss
All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true
But for now from a distance is where I’ll be loving you
I think you need me as a friend to help you through
because there are things I can’t control that are hurting you
We both have issues no one knows of
neither of us had the strength to be true to our love
Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be
but for now please don’t stop loving me
Even though I’m not your girlfriend I’ll still be here
With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear
The story of love can be quicker than the blink of an eye
But our story of won’t be over until the day that we die
Until We Meet Again
Maybe I wear baggies
and white socks with flip-flops,
maybe I don’t like listening to rave
and I’m not on the social mountaintops,
maybe I don’t care about the things
that make your worlds twirl,
maybe you look at me and think:
Gee, what a nothing girl.
Maybe I like giving smiles
which seems to be a sin today,
and maybe I allow my imagination
to sometimes run away,
maybe you don’t understand this
and that’s why you cannot see,
if this make me a nothing girl,
hey, that’s ok with me!
The world makes you believe
your personality mustn’t be detected,
your face must be picture perfect
and wear cloths just the best, to be accepted.
Maybe I look at you
and feel sorry that you’re blind,
robots you have became,
yourself you’ll never find.
God made you, as well as me,
this means I am something,
the world is a liar
and if I must be a nothing
for you to see it,
then so be it!
You don’t know how I’m feeling.
I have yet to vocalize
Desire deep inside me.
Can you see it in my eyes?
I tremble when I’m near you
Heat travels up my thighs
and I want you with an urgency
That I just can’t describe.
Dare I reach out to touch you?
Do you think you’d realize
How much I want and need you?
Can you see it in my eyes?
I long to say, “I love you,”
But am scared of your reply.
Terrified like a child
I’ve become paralyzed.
The camouflaged emotions
Lead to pain and silent cries.
And yet I just can’t tell you.
Don’t you see it in my eyes?
Confessing through this poem
My dilemma summarized.
The feeling’s quite cathartic,
But will lead to my demise.
As you sit in silence,
I’ll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.
When you’ve been hurt,
And can’t believe what they’ve done
If you need someone to talk to
I’ll be the one.
If a close friend hurts you,
And you don’t understand
Remember I’m here,
I’ll lend a helping hand.
Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I’m here for you.
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be my find?
Could it be, after all this time,
Fate is going to be kind?
Could you be the one for me,
The one to help me forget
The man that broke my heart, my soul
The man that haunts me yet?
You tell me that I’m beautiful
Something I’ve never heard
But the one still lives here in my mind
That couldn’t spare a kind word
It’s going to be hard to forget
And pick up the pieces he left
Could you be the one to teach
How to love again and forget?
Could you be the one to come
And mend my broken heart?
Are you willing to piece together
What another broke apart?
It won’t be an easy job, you see
My road has been long and rough
And the heart that was once so soft
Is now shut, locked, and tough
But I can feel my heart open again
It’s opening for you
Just come in, and love me back
That’s all you have to do
I must ask you one small thing
Before we kiss and part
Please be nice and kind to me
I’m tired of broken hearts